I returned for a reason.
Have you ever seen the first Willy Wonka movie?
I'm not talking about that Jhonny Depp shit that Tim Burton made, I'm talking about the 1970's Gene Wilder movie.
At the end of the movie Charlie Bucket turns back and gives Willy back the Gobbstopper.
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Giving up is easy, but knowing when to walk away and knowing when to fight is another thing altogether.
I have a beautiful woman in my life.
Look at her.
I'm fighting back the words, but LOVE is possible.
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The Gobbstopper lasts forever, I'm a bit more sensible.
I know that love is conditional. Everything boils down to contracts. Just like credit cards, not keeping your word has consequences. You can always lie about what you are, but material things have a certain reality in nature. You can always manipulate, but repetition leads to being found out eventually.
I found what I was looking for, and I would be lying if I said that its unique. It's easy to find and easy to make with the right tools. The whole point is that feelings are chemicals, and the Highs and Lows that you feel never come from them. The emotions that you feel always come from you.
Have you ever noticed that the first friends you made in school never feel the same as the ones you have now? Have you ever noticed that the love you find later in life hardly ever seems to have that same all consuming emotion?
I used to think it was me but in my solitude and meditation I realized it was my tolerance for the chemicals had in love! Like any other drug I built up a tolerance to it all!!! I used to have vanilla sex but now I need to be whipped and beaten just to FEEL. The endorphins are the craving and addiction. Adulthood is the point you reach when you are dulled to the highs of emotion. It came at me fast, but I can say that I am pretty jaded now.
Even in knowing this is it still love that I feel? Of course, but in understanding the facts behind the emotions I know that like all addictions it has its price. Have you ever seen a guy with a manipulative high maintenance bitch? They follow them around like a crack addict after a dealer haemorrhaging money like a drunken sailor on shore leave.
Remember what DJHIVES taught you all. LOVE is CONDITIONAL. When the relation ship is "moving too fast" Notice that you are giving much more TIMERGY than the chemical high is worth to you. When things aren't moving fast enough, you aren't getting the high you are after.
All in all when you boil down the psychology its just about not being the sheep, but being the shepherd. Emotions are the carrot, the contract is the fence, but at the end of the day it's your ass on the block.
Remember TOBY from ROOTS?
Timergy Over Bitches Y'all.
Thats all I'm sayin'
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(The best thing about having a girl into bondage is that if she ever screws up you can just flogg her and start over.)
